It's Time to Grow up

Wow. I didn't think I would actually answer one of these questions.. but here we go.

If I had to choose between my significant other and my friends.. Wait, this already happened.
I didn't really want to choose my significant other.. I wanted to have my cake and eat it too..
basically.. but that never works out.  I don't have very many friends now.. Since I've been at
East Carolina, I made a few friends, but they're not really "my" friends. They're mostly cole's
friends.. and I can't really confide in them.. and granted.. I love cole, I love talking to him...
and I like to tell him things that I can't really tell everyone else.. but sometimes.. there's just
things I don't want to talk to him about and I can never find someone else to talk to about it.
Cole takes things really lightly... and I don't appreciate it really.. it almost pisses me off.
Lots.

I think if you're going to have a significant other.. you shouldn't let it interfere with your
friendships.. because if/when something happens.. you will have no one to turn to and it will
be like starting from square one.

I don't mean to be talking shit.. or ranting.. but i needed something to write because the
spectacular book I'm supposed to be writing right now is stuck at the beginning.. and
I know that it takes a long time and you can move on from the part that you're writing and
try to start somewhere else.. but I want to make this amazing.. and I want to have something
to be proud of.. And right now.. that's really the only thing that I can see that would make me
happy, and proud of myself.

Blah blah blah.
k.
bye.

But it doesn't really feel like it.
I mean the weather is all like "rawr, i want to be 90 degrees today"
But I still feel like I'm in school. Maybe because I'm sitting on campus
working from 8:00AM (today, 7) til 5 and generally not getting a lunch
break.

We have gone to the beach though, once so far.
and some people are going to be coming up here to hang out for a bit
and I'm pretty excited about that.


I'm also excited about coming back to charlotte next thursday.
Going for the senior graduation, aww. and to get my little sister
so she can spend some time with me out of ITL.. so maybe
she will learn that there's more to do than what she's been up
to. I just want to see her do well.. Like any caring big sister..
even though sometimes i could care less.

Anyway, nothing really going on here.. Just working and such.
woo

He opens up my door and I get into his car,
And he says, you look beautiful tonight... And I feel perfectly fine
But I miss screamin' and fightin'
And kissin' in the rain....
And it's two a.m. and I'm cursin' your name..
You're so in love that you act insane..
And that's the way I loved you
Breakin' down and comin' undone
It's a roller-coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you



I'm not exactly sure what's going on anymore..
But I've been listening to Taylor Swift of all people.. almost everyday this week.
and now I have that song stuck in my head...
Summer break is ok so far..

Except, you know, the random things that happen when I'm at home and when Cole's gone.
I've been accused of cheating on him.. not once, but TWICE.
We've got past that, which is good..
It just really bothers me that even when I don't do anything.. besides hang out with my friends.. you know.
And getting yelled at for doing so.
Especially... When I get yelled at because Cole talks to one of his friends who wasn't even there and
"finds out" that I was having sex.
I was like... really?? 
Sorry.. I'm done ranting.
:)

I just wanted to put something in here about the show(s) I have and want to see.


I saw-
Reel Big Fish with Tip The Van (surprisingly good) and Streetlight Manifesto
         -I got a bruised rib because of Streetlight, but it was ok because the saxophone player was trying to make sure I wasn't dying. haha.


I want to see-
Ani Difranco... by herself. Because I don't know when I have ever seen her on tour.. and I have to go.. Because I <3 her.. a lot.
Bonaroo- Even though the haven't listed the artists playing yet.. I really think it would be absolutely amazing.




I just found out that Marcy Playground is going to be at Amos' in April. That makes me laugh.. and I almost want to go see them. lol


I wanted to say that right now, I will hopefully be able to update this and say what else is going on. I want to keep up with everyone i saw this year because I always end up forgeting someone amazing. lol

yeah, basically...


just thought i would let you know.. apparently
according to my boyfriend..
everyone who voted for obama.... is stupid.
uninformed
retarded.
Ridiculous.


Sweet.

Any way. I'm excited. Just thought i would let you know.
YES WE CAN. bitch.
:)

Hellooo guys..

So The first day of fall break... and I tried to go see my spectacular teachers from previous years..
But it turns out that everyone in the office is a douchebag.  I mean.. I knew that before.. But they sat there
and looked at me like I was absolutely retarded.  I probably should have just gone in school and said hey..
But I am too paranoid for my own good for things like that. Blah.

I am going back to school around 11:30 or something for journalism.. because apparently they're going
crazy.  So until then.. I'm sitting here watching Forrest Gump until I go back.  Hopefully they'll be ok for me
to do that.

Anyway.  School is getting spectacularly boring.  A few of my classes are getting ridiculous.. and I don't even
see the point of coming anymore.  My English teacher went off and had a baby.. so now we're an online class
but she doesn't know how to get things turned in on time.. or receive them.

I'm excessively tired.  I might take a nap before i get to school.



WILLIS!!! YOU NEED TO CALL ME WHEN YOU GET IN TOWN. FOR REAL.

SHANNON- this weekend.. for real.  Call me.

So i never write in here..
and it makes me wonder how many entries say that exact thing
hahah


Anyways
Schools getting to its end. im excited... Willis came back monday, Cole comes back tomorrow.
I can feel summer.. and im soo ready for it. SOOO ready.
School is going by slower and slower... i have officially given up in 3/4 of my classes
(all but English) and i got called out on it today.
Yallen decided to tell me that i was being disrespectful of her and i needed to chill out with it..
I just told her that even though i love journalism alot, its definitely not my main priority.
The only thing im even attempting to do well in is my english class.. I want to pass. really badly. 

I got stuff from ECU today to register for classes and majors and whatnot..
Fun stuff.. The thing is, i dont even know what im going to major in... 
Since i wanted to go  to USC for journalism.. and ECU doesnt have it.. I could
major in communications... or art because i like it.. but i dont want to major in
something that wont get me anywhere... I mean, ill have fun doing it.. but will i be able
to support myself? Probably not. So i get to have a chat with mi madre about that later tonight.
Housing payment was due friday.. didnt turn it in and now i feel under a world of stress.. and
i want to go and kill myself because i feel like im a charity case... I want to be able to pay
for my own college education. . but as everything stands right now, i definitely cant do that.
My car payment's due at the end of next week.. and i dont think ill have enough money
to pay for that either... so bleh. 

Tusculum University still wants my balls. They called me the other day
and were all "are you coming here? have you gotten financial aid in the mail?"
I just said i didnt get it.. and the lady told me i had another scholarship given to me..
so yeah. mom doesnt know that.. and im tired of hearing from them... 
Oh, for those of you who DONT know
Tusculum is a private college in TN that gave me a 35,000 scholarship..
After looking into the school and the costs more... i realized i didnt really want to 
go there...
     1. Its a private school
     2. Everyone is rich there.
     3. Its in TN
      4. Its about the same distance from here to ecu to go there
      5. No smoking/drinking, EVER
     6. Small college. 

the only part i did like about it though
was the journalism program they had.. and its close to the mountains
so if i ever wanted snow.. its about an hour away. 


yeah...
Thats all
Im about to go eat with my shannon
because we love japanese food.
haha

My hair color changed again..
it kinda scares me how many times 
and different ways ive had my hair..

 



Yeah, pretty much.. ive had a bunch of different hairs..
i wanted to find a picture of me when i had CRAZY long black hair..
and i could sing the jet song... but its taking too long. so yeah

you have my hair..
:)


Which one be the bestest?

And today was an overall good day. 
I cant say it was the bestest day in the whole entire world or anything, but it wasnt half bad. I stayed at my house most of the day and just hung out with my parents.. played guitar hero on MEDIUM hahahaha... and still didnt do so well.. but at least i tried.. Tried to play DDR.. yeah, no. Not happening ever in this life-time. And no, i didnt get either of these things for christmas, Gabbi did. My sister and i went over there and played for like.. 3 hours.. and then we went home.  Watched movies.. etc.

Oh, My birthday was yesterday..
Spent the first hour with Cole, willis, reid and mandy.. playing guitar hero.. haha. it was pretty word.. I went alot of places.. chilled with Christian, my sister and gabbi for a little while.  and just chilled at home because cole's mom was a crazy face. hahaha. I almost ran out of gas on the way to the gas station.

Christmas break is going awesome. 
I love it and i love being out of school.. No worrying about Bagley's homework, or that crazy ass project.. No worrying about writing articles.. no worrying about that silly blonde girl in front of me talking about how much she likes the shittiest boys at Sun Valley High School. You know the ones im talking about too (Justin Maclemore.. Shane Outen, the list continues).. No worrying about having enough time to do all the things that need to be done besides school work.. I really needed this break.

Im quitting Si's this week. 
Because im going to work at a tanning bed.. because im awesome.. and the money will be alot better. I can also transfer to another store when i go to college (if it happens, that is) No more Pizza, no more mean ass customers, no more Ms. Lee. No more fake ass people.. No more stupid excuses why my days keep getting cut. Its over, and its going to hurt them more than they know.. I do more little things than any other girl that works there.. Shelley and Rebecca can go jump off a cliff. As long as i was working (of course, then I would have to work everyday..) I could do it. No problem. When i leave.. they wont have anyone to cover for their asses and ms lee will have to bring in some stupid little girl who knows nothing, and will continue to know nothing because apparently rebecca cant even close by herself.. and shelley just gets mad, and is quitting soon too. They're closing soon anyway.. Who's going to want to compete with papa johns, pizza hut, NYPP, Domino's.. etc etc.? Especially when NO ONE comes in there at all.

Dude, my friends rock.
We went out to dinner for my birthday.. and to debut my "new hair" and went shopping. The only bad thing that happened was cole and his dumbass throwing MY KEY at my face. yeah, it sucked a little, but everything else was fun. they made me stand on a chair while everyone sang happy birthday to me. Afterwards, we went to mandy's house and exchanged gifts, after it took us forever to get there.. im pretty sure everyone was pleased with their gifts.. Except i didnt get part of mine from willis because he's a crazy.. and wont give me my CD's! : )

Oh, by the way
I dyed my hair.. and i still dont really know if i like it.. pictures will be on the way. Willis and cole like it.. so i guess that makes it kinda ok.. My parents (mostly my dad) hate it. At first it was a million colors.. and then it was just one solid color, kinda.. and now its a few colors.. I think its growing on me a little though..


Goodnight
I have to get up crazy early in the morning. 

Makin money all the time..

Tonight was like..
Lets let everything out of the box
honest night.

and now i feel completely vulnerable to some people.
I'm glad other people weren't online, because then
i wouldnt be able to talk to someone without wondering
what they are thinking about me.

bleh, paranoia
I just had some things i needed to get off my chest.
and i think now that its done
I'll be better off.

I still have a few things to tell certain other people..

 Because he made me want to do another one of these people thingys
Only this time.. Im only going to say a sentence or two about certain people
(possibly a few of the same people from the previous entry)
with more people. 

So here goes.. 


1. Stop trying to suck up to my mom, i know it works for yours.. but my mom happens to hate your ever living guts.

2. You ask if they want ice cream, they both say yes. NO ONE HERE IS SAYING HAM!!!!!!!!!!

3. Ive got some presents for you. And we're pretty fucking awesome because we drive around in my car and kill bugs. hahaha

4. You're a nasty, and you probably need to get out of here. 

5. I havent seen you in forever.. I'm (ALOT) older than you, and you're in love with Fall Out Boy, get over it. :D

6. For some reason, i dont miss you nearly as much as I thought i would. College was supposed to make me realize how much i missed people, and cared about them.. but you dont make an effort to talk to me either.. so i guess it doesnt matter..

7. I'm glad we're friends and i dont think youre a silly freshman anymore.

8. We  need to hang out more because i miss being awesome friends.. we need to twade soon, mines getting old.

9. You're a douche. You made me turn back into the girl who wont let anyone too far in so i dont get hurt, but at the same time, i think it was about time i put my guard up..

10. We have the same music, and you know me better than you think you do. You just dont know it.. haha. Tell yo ma YOU DO WHAT YOU WANTTTT!!

11. I'm sorry we bore you when we hang out... Im glad you like my driving though. haha.

12. Your new girlfriend is a big improvement from the last crazy bitch.. but no one will compare to your first. 

13. You need to go fuck yourself for hurting my friend so much. I just gave this one away.

14. I like you alot better than some of her other choices in boys. I dislike you because you lied about something important.. and thats no good. But other than that, you're pretty word. :)

15. I miss you. You never come home anymore. 

16. Why you gotta be so positive? No matter whats going on, you're always smiling, i envy you for that. 

17. i <3 you to death, but you dont talk alot. :(

18. PENIS. thats all. 

19. Go choke on a fat one.

20. I know you have alot of problems, but im here to help you through whatever i can... I love you and hope you understand you are like a sister to me. 

21. I miss talking to you.. You gave a good insight on things i couldnt see through, and i know i dont have many questions to ask you about those things anymore... i still think you're a good guy and you deserve an awesome girlfriend.

22. Ive known you forever. The longest time ive known a boy.. i think. And you are like a big brother to me, thank you for that. 

23. You need to stop treating everyone around you like shit... I feel sorry for your best friend. I dont thinkyou need to show up to work anymore if you feel like you want to leave all the damned time. Go eat some cake, fatty.

24. Im going to miss you while you're in florida..

25. Again, find a better best friend.. I think you're sweet. 

26. I think you're fake... and i think you need to tell people about what you're thinking.. instead of keeping it all inside.. because you are going to self destruct and it wont be good.

27. I think you are also fake.. and you try to be sweet and nice.. but you're not. and on the inside, you hate several people you pretend to be nice to... 

28. I dont know what to get you for christmas.

29. You freak me out, hard core.. but for some reason.. i want to talk to you and figure you out.. 

30. Yeah, you're last this time because i said so.. You are.. a person who needs better music. hahaha

The number of times i've tried to write in here.
The computer has either been acting stupid, 
or i get kicked off and the computer gets restarted.
So tonight, sam's not home, and the computer is fine...
so far. 


Ive been wanting to do this 
"Pick 22 people and write whatever you want about them"
Thing for a long time... so I'm going to do it.
I'm going to be really honest, and if you can guess which one
you are, and you guess correctly, ill tell you. :)

Here Goes:



1.  I havent really known you that long.. But I think you're pretty awesome.
At first, i kinda thought you were annoying, and needed to stfu.. alot. But now
I pretty much <3 you. I'm glad i got to know you better recently.. I'm also glad
that you dont hate me. I like helping you with some of your problems, they 
keep my mind off of my own problems, so thank you for that. You make me 
laugh, especially when you do things in my car. ...K im done with you now. 

2. I absolutely adore you. You're my favorite person on the entire planet. 
You better know who this is, even people who arent you know that this is you.
You've been with me through thick and thin.. and I've been there for you too.
I'm glad we're awesome friends. I'm glad we can talk about everything on
the entire planet, and not think any different of each other. I'm glad we don't
hold grudges against each other. I agree that boys suck a fat one. I also agree
that we need to hang out more often, because it makes me sad we dont have
that much "us" time (It kinda sounds like im dating you...) lol. But yeah,  frealz

3. You're one of the best guys ever. On the planet. You've never done anything
that would make me think you were a douche-bag.. or lower my opinion of you..
You're one of my good friends, and it makes me happy that we've gotten this 
close. I have had a crush on you at one point or another.. Just thought i would
throw that out there.

4. You.. are also one of my good guy friends.. and you make me laugh all the
time. I'm glad we're friends... and can talk shit about people whenever we want
just because. I like talking to you about things because i know (for the most part)
you wont go tell everyone and their mom about what ive been saying..
about myself, or anyone else for that matter. I like your advice, and your insight
on random things that come to my mind. 

5. Ive known you for a while.. It makes me reallyyyyy happy that we're still awesome
friends. No matter what we thought about each other in the 5th grade. I'm glad
I've got a girl my age to talk to about random stuff, and just chill with. I think we need
to get my presents in order. Uhm... You're awesome. End of Story. :)

6. So i met you in journalism. I secretly had a crush on you. Now, we dont talk that much
and its like, wtf. But i think you're an awesome kid, and im glad we got to be friends.
Im also glad i can make fun of you and you cant make fun of me back, usually. haha

7. You.. thats all i really can say. You need to drop your boy, find someone better.. 
and learn what you want to do with YOU... because your boyfriend shouldnt 
dictate where you go in life. Dont mess up your life because of a stupid boy.. 
I know you <3 him and whatever... but i dont think you really do.. i think you're just
afraid that once you leave him.. that you'll just want him.. Trust me, if you find 
someone better, it wont bother you so much.. 

8.  You broke my heart.. But..You taught me what love really was... 
You taught me alot about myself. I now know that Im emotionally 
stronger than i thought i was.  I have yet to over come my 
self-conciousness... but i dont think i ever will. I found a passion 
for things around me i took for granted.. I learned not to be soo
critical on people I don't know.. So thank you for teaching me
about myself and the rest of the world around me. I just hope 
you're doing well.. and you're happy with how things ended. 

9. I dont know you that well. but i decided that you are one of my favorite
girls that are younger than me. You are pretty much the complete opposite
of me, and i guess thats why it works. But  you are pretty awesome and 
I just think you should know that. 

10. I miss the goofy times we had.. I miss being your best friend.. I miss 
knowing everything about you.. and I kinda want it back.. I want to be your 
bestest buddy and your silly eskimo. haha. I just want you to be happy.. 
because you haven't looked happy in a really long time. I'm sorry people 
are gay.. and im sorry that i havent talked to you that much recently.. 
Lets fix it, ok? Twade?

11. I thought you were one of my best friends..I thought we were like twins.
Turns out we exact opposites.. I keep my word, you betray yours. I stop
doing things I say i will.. You not only continue doing them... but tell 
someone you like them and miss them.. when 5 minutes before.. said 
you hated them, and would never talk to them again. Now i understand
why you didnt want me talking to them.. Now i understand why you 
contstantly asked if i talked to them.. I completely understand. Hope you
are doing well where ever you are.. and maybe you've learned a lesson.. 
But for some reason, i doubt it. 

12. Ive got you in my pocket.. and youre one of the most awesome girls
ever. Just because you sleep in my bed and get mad when i try to wake you
up, doesnt meant that you're not awesome to talk to before i go to sleep.. 
You say the most random things, and make me laugh and feel better when
everyone is being retarded. So thank you for being there for me 24/7. 
I'm glad we're this close, really. I love you, alot.

13. You are an ok friend. I cant tell you anything really because you'll tell
someone else, then suddenly everyone and their mom knows whats going
on.. But you have a sweet personality and can always make me smile.
I'm really going to miss you boo boo. 
 
14. I happen to think that you are better than your best friend in the whole world
I think you should find a better friend, even though i know you wont, Its the principle
of the things im trying to tell you. Get a new best friend, a new job.. and you'll be
set for life.  Dont let someone hold you down... Oh, and get a car. :)

15. You piss me off more than anyone at work. Really. You have a loud mouth
and are way too immature to even think you can have an intelligent conversation
with me.  Please dont try to.. it wont work. You'll look like an ass in front of everyone
and feel stupid. You've been warned. 

16. You are one of the best guys ever in the whole entire world. I like how I dont
have to think about something funny to say.. I can say one word, and no matter
what kind of mood you're in, I know that you will laugh. Plus, I know you get scared
easily.. so it makes me laugh. I dont see you nearly enough.. and i think that it
needs to change ASAP. pretty much. Ok loveyoubye. PENIS.

17. So i kinda like you. but recently.. you've been getting awkward.. and thats no 
good. So yeah, lets get that together. and then maybe we can work something out.

18. We havent really known each other that long. But i think you're an awesome
girl, and awesome to chill with. I'm pretty glad we ended up being friends 
because i thought you were going to be weird. But i know better now, you're just
weird in a good way. haha. :D

19. Every morning when i wake up there's a halo hangin from the corner of my
girlfriends four post bed.. Yeah. I dont know whyyy i put that. but i did. I decided
that you are also on eof the best girls on this planet. I know you have some 
problems, but i can help you... even though you're younger than me.. and I dont
Know that much about bad things.. haha.. I can still make you smile and keep
your mind off or those thingys. Cause theyre no fun. I love you! Woooo!

20. The only thing i will say for you. If you didnt move away.. things would be different.
Thats all... : (

21. You're such a positive person.. It makes me wonder what you're hiding. 
I know you're so sweet, caring, and awesome to other people.. I dont know.. 
maybe i just over-think things. 

22. You're the last person.. You scare the holy fucking shit out of me. for real.
thats all.


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Yeah, so after all that's said and done..

School's been getting better.. Im finally doing a little better in chemistry.. I decided to stop hating her so much, and to study more for her tests.. and vocab things.  Even though on the last test i made a freaking like 32 or something.. and the vocab test i made a 52.. so i should probably just go kill myself.  The good news is im not failing spanish II again. Thank you jesus.

Journalism is one of those things.. that nothing ever stays the same (except who's in there).  Im tired of everything changing all the time. Im ready for my graduation. I want my secret santa person to tell me who they are so i can tell them what to get me. I want the person i have for secret santa to go hurt themselves... and not come to the christmas party because i dont know what to get them really.. I mean im sure i could find a connection somewhere and figure out what she likes. Im just too lazy for that right now. 

Work... What can i say about that right now? Well it pretty much sucks. Im looking for another job. Go ahead tell mrs. lee, im sure she already MAGICALLY knows. hmm. Anyways. I still work at the eye doctor, and i love it alot because its just so easy.. He's been messing with my paycheck though.. which makes me sad. I work when i say i do, so i think i should get paid for the amount of time im there, right?

Uhm.. THANKSGIVING BREAK!!! Yess man. Thank you for pilgrims and indians. Thank you for several days for me to sleep in on. 
Thank you for bringing my awesome college friends home for the rest of the effin week. Thank you for all this sweet food im going to eat on thursday. Thank you to the 10+ pounds im going to gain on thursday. Thank you for..... Sleep. yeah, sleep. and Charlie Brown.. and parades. :) 
Im pretty random.. i think its because my eyes hurt and im sleepy. 

Bad things are happening to my friends... and it makes me sad that i cant help them out.. I want to really badly... But shannon doesnt know what to do.. I try to help her out.. but i guess it doesnt do any good.. So i think im going to go ahead and give up. She needs to get over him hard-core. .. and i know how hard it is for you to do it shannon.. but once you do, you'll feel so much better.. i swear on everything on this whole entire earth. And moving on doesnt mean getting a new boy.. you just have to realize you're better than what he's made you feel like. You need to realize there was a happy shannon before travis came into being.. Just know im here for you.. and no matter what, dont let anyone tell you what you should or shouldnt do... because its your life.. and you have to live it the way you want... That means, no matter what i say.. do what you want. just take the words people tell you into your thoughts.

Uhmm...
I think this is the longest entry ive written in a long time.. 
so i think ill go now. 

Soooo summers almost over..
and its actually been a good one.

I havent really been at my house..
Ive been working, 
going out, 
sleeping, 
and starting it all over again.

No, it doesnt get old. 
Ever.

I rarely get online, long enough to do anything
I've met some awesome new people.
and stayed close with the best people in my life..
as well as gotten closer to people 
who are going away to college... which kinda sucks
but hey. I <3 them alot.

I have a good tan.
I've pretty much spent every weekend
away from my house.. doing something amazing.

I've learned alot about myself
and how well i can read people.
Boys are absolutely ridiculous.. and 
just make me laugh because they think i dont know.

heres something, ready?


Shannon- I love spending time with you at adams house and your house.
                   Just because we always have fun, no matter what we do.
                   Even if I have to go to the gym with you and my legs kill me for
                   two days so far... haha
Willis- We didnt really hang out a whooolllee lot before this summer. 
            That kind of upsets me.. Because now you're going away and I 
            wont be able to randomly call you up and be like STARBUCKS!?
            or carowinds.. or get mix CD's. You and Cole have to run away 
            from college and visit me alot. haha
Cole- Im glad we started hanging out over the summer. Even though 
           you don't like coldplay, and i dont like Tool, we have good times 
           making fun of people and going random places to see random 
           movies.. (Hot Rod- which was lame, btw) I'm pretty sad that you're 
           leaving. You better come see me with willis!!!
Mandy-I never really hung out with you during school.. and now that we 
             hang out alot....doing random stuff, I'm glad you're in journalism
             and I'm glad that you're a goof and can make me laugh. Since
             I'll be seeing you ...everyday during school i cant tell you to come
             visit me or anything like that. So hopefully our last weeks of summer
             will be absolutely awesome.
Kate- Basically... I <3 you. I'm glad we got closer during the summer.
           I loveeee going to the pool with you and talking about random stuff
           and boys being attracted to your hairy legs. (hahaha) Journalism this
           year is going to be pretty awesome, hopefully. 
Elric- Even though you dont get online. I figure that i should put you in here 
          since you were involved in the awesome-ness of my summer. I have
          fun going over to your house and hanging out with a bunch of random 
          people laughing at stupid stuff. Hopefully we'll have classes together
          this year, and you'll actually stay in school. Loserface. 


Since the summers almost over..
I probably wont update until school starts
up..
Goooooooooooooooddddddd, school. 
but its ok because im a SENIOR!!!! '08 Bitch.

NO ONE LIKES A SQUIRELL!


im having fun.
:)

How's your day going?

its whatever. 
I pretty much knew this was going to happen.
its what happens everytime.
If im a backstabber.. then what are you?
I've got a hunch you havent been 
NEARLY as honest as you say you've been.

like i said before, i knew it would happen,
yeah, i considered you one of my best friends.
But im not all for this drama. 
and im completely over it. 
I'm not going to be bitter towards you, and im
not going to sit here and talk shit about you..
I will wish you the best of luck at ASU
and hope everything goes well in your life. 
because i dont want to be apart of this game 
you play with your friends anymore.






Anyway
My junior year is finally over.
thank you jesus.
Summer's here.. and its going to be amazing.

I decided that finding somewhere new to work
probably is a good idea.. but i do need
to work on some stuff.. i dont want to leave Si's 
on a bad note.. and i need to learn how to NOT
socialize with my friends when they come in to
eat some food. .....At least when mom's there. 
:)

Shannon, 
I love you, and i know you dont like to see me sad.
and i think im going to try to make myself better
and figure out everything else about jobs, and being
a better waitress.. blah blah blah.


Ok, goodnight.

so
about prom

It was pretty awesome
ate dinner at some expensive restaurant
(Union Street Bistro)
and then rode up to prom..
danced, went crazyyyyy hahaha
and then stayed till it was over..
went to my house, changed and went out
to laser quest.. 
after 2 hardcore games
we went to IHOP and got an amazing breakfast

Finally came home around... 5 in the morning
it was fun
and a SOBER night. haha




Schools over in 4 days.. 
its sooo good.. but sad at the same time
i dont want to see my senior friends leave
i love them alot..
and i dunno what journalism is going to be 
like without them.. who am i going to play 
tetris with?
Who am i going to make fun of???
Who's going to try to bag me?
Who's going to attempt to photoshop me 
over and over again?!?!

all the stuff i thought i would NEVER miss. i 
keep thinking about and im like..
wtf. i hated that.. but im going to miss it so much


we had a party in journalism basically
to say goodbye to the seniors..
it was such a sad day.. I didnt know i was
going to be that emotional... 
I cried. and didnt want to leave that room
even though i knew that i would see them
later that day.. and other days too.. 
it just sucks that theyre leaving.. 
Its surreal.. and i dont want them gone

Im not going to get over it. 
and im going to miss every single one
of them, for real. 



enough of this 
bleh.

soooo
its been a little while.

i always say that.


Anyways.
NEW STUFF:
1. My friends are happy.
2. Elric is JUST my friend
3. Shannon's going to the beach sunday
     Ima miss her.
4. PROM IS NEXT WEEKEND!@!#%$#^
5. Cayla's birthday is on tuesday! hooooray 18!
6. People are graduating.. in like... a week
    It makes me want to cry, a little. I <3 all of you guys.
7. Nothing is absolutely terrible in my life 
    And Im learning how to deal with stupid people. FINALLY.
8. My room is a complete mess.
9. I have plans to CLEAN it.. today even. 
10. I went to IHOP and the park today. it was fun.




Yeah, thats about it.. i dont want to write anything
else.. because im bored.. and dont want to be on the computer
anymore.

Lets see
I started training Sunday
and at first i thought there was
alot more people than there actually was.
I'm working with 6 other girls
Including my lovely shannon.
1. Brooke Privitte.
2. Stacy Hunter.
3. Shelley Burton..
4. Rebecca somethin..
5. Lidia ...crazy last name.

it should be good, even though
i pretty much though..
1 and 2 wanted to kill me together..
and 3 and 4 dont like me anyway.
and 5.. well, we'll not get into that.
ANYWAYS.

It should be good, we were all getting along
tonight. Shelley and Rebecca were really quiet
so we had to make them talk.

Ive gotta test on wednesday on the menu..
and the table numbers
It could be really intiresting..
But I should be able to get it down.

Shirts-
Suck at life
Theyre supposed to be expensive..
and nice and stuff..
No. Theyre huge (Stacy, Lidia and Shannon drown in them)
Theyre really hard and smell reallyyyy bad
Theyve got colorful ones in the back closet.. but
theyre for little kids. We decided that we wanted to
pay for them so we could wear them. But
apparently it doesnt work that way.

OTHER EMPLOYEES
Lets see, what can i say about them
Theyre intiresting... The drivers are
retarded and think theyre the shit
and reallyyy they look like rats and use
steroids. Chris Weidner works there as
cook/cleaner boy.

Yeah, I cant say much
I work every day this week, so
sorry if im not picking up
my phone and stuff, im at work
more than likely.
UNLESS you want to chill like
till 4:45
(except tuesdays and thursdays
cause i gotta work at my other job)
then thats pretty word, lets do it.
:)

this ended up long.
sorry guys.

Number 1. Im still alive

Number 2. I'm a little paranoid.

Number 3. I still have friends

Number 4. I don't care if you dont like me.

Number 5. I'm going to training today for Si's Pizza..






Yep, thats it.

:)

Ive been having a lot of trouble remembering things.
i dont remember what i did yesterday..
besides hang out with elric..
and then i ended up in my bed talking onthe phone at 3AM

I was supppoooooosssedd to chill
with trevor and other people at his late birthday party thing..
but then no one called me about that..
and cayla called and wanted to hang out after elric..
 but I didnt call her back. and blehhh

But i dooo remember that shannon
is moving in to her new house with mister travis.
and im pretty excited for her.
and her new puppy, that i will have to see as soon as possible.

And ive got homework.. out the asssss
spanish, i hate you.
US History. Fuck you.
Physical Science, im not in 2nd grade.  

lovely.
lets get drunk and screw
yay. haha.